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Post by acmra1 on Dec 30, 2010 11:54:59 GMT -5
Hey Boyz. This is my journal that I'm making in 2011 just to get better at this stuff and for my own amusement. I'm makin this commitment to taking action and being held accountable to reaching my goals. I'm gonna post my interactions, get ripped up, improve my skills and vert in Bball, and figure out how to make some money cuz im pretty broke. I'm still a young gun at 19, frosh in college but I feel like I know all that I need to get this shit handled and have some crazy ass adventures. I feel like I'm just so close to makin shit happen on the reg. i know some crazy shit's gonna be happening this year u better believe that.
What I want to see is progress over the journey, ok nites, good nites, insane nites. I want growth, Makin that decision to be my best self at all times. I'm workin on this and hope thru this journal I can get constructive criticism on what I'm doin right or wrong to help me improve and help others improve at the same time.
This is Gunna be a good time. So Lets Get It.
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Post by Two Step on Dec 30, 2010 13:46:46 GMT -5
Sweet dood
It'll be crazy how much you'll see yourself change by the time 2012 rolls around if you apply this like a barbarian =P
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Post by acmra1 on Jan 1, 2011 20:08:40 GMT -5
@twostep - Ya man its wild how much things change in a years time I'm already so much more different than I was a year or two ago.
NYE 11 I realized I kinda have no idea how to write a field report haha. Didn’t have a good nite in terms of results but ended up having a great time anyway during NYE. Just getting drunk partying an having a good time. Went to a house party in the city with my friends from high school. It ended up being mostly older kids that were like juniors and seniors when I was freshman sophomore age. I had a lot of fun seeing and talking to a lot of people that when I was younger probably would have been intimidated to talk too, but now I don’t feel a difference really at all between us. I’m a freshman in college and there like junior senior in college / older age. Still no results tho. Didn’t really approach sets per say but I was definitely socializing with a lot of people. I was mostly out of my head the whole nite just being loud and fun and jst basically fucking around. I talked to a decent amount of girls before the drama hit up the party which ended up ending it pretty quick after the ball dropped. The best set I did noticed that I think I get attraction and then keep acting the same way and lose attraction, but I don’t really notice that I’m supposed to chill or whatever or that I have attraction cuz I’m just having a good time. I also noticed that whenever I go out I feel like I always make friends with the guys really easily and they always love me and cheer me on but that doesn’t always translate into anything. Also something I noticed this morning when me and my friends were reminiscing on the nite, was that my natural friends that hooked up with girls at the party was that the girls had basically already chosen who they were going to hook up with before the party. It wasn’t really my friends going out and spitting game. The girls had clearly chosen whom they wanted to hook up with and wanted to make it happen. Multiple times my friends mentioned a girl isolating themselves with them and it was clearly my friends being the buyer in the buyer seller dynamic. I’m really tryna figure out how to make this happen for me while I’m back home and how to make this happen for me at college.
ACMRA1
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Post by Two Step on Jan 1, 2011 21:48:24 GMT -5
You should check out the How to meet girls at parties post on campus charmer.
Anyhoo, I had a insane new years. I couldnt really speak english that night, but i did pretty well with girls =P. Anyhoo insane night
Remember to have fun
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Post by acmra1 on Jan 4, 2011 15:25:15 GMT -5
Thanks for the reply man. And I'm def a guy usually havin a good time just tryna balance havin fun with gettin my shit done haha
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Post by acmra1 on Jan 20, 2011 1:12:41 GMT -5
AIght Finally a fuckin update. Was Home for winter break and nothing was going on really. Spent the break chillin with my boys, blazing mostly. On the plus side I started up meditating and also started reading these self help books right now I'm reading the fountainhead by ayn rand its fuckin solid definitely interesting. I also started eating better (going paleo) and working out because i'm trying to get all ripped up for beach season. Finally the action didn't really have a good opportunity to go out until wednesday. I wasn't really sure what I was going to do. I didn't know of any parties and none of my friends wanted to go out with me but i told my self that it didn't matter. You gotta start taking action somewhere so no excuses ( haha thinking about this excuses to go out and party and hit on chicks ftw). So I went out alone and the only thing that I heard about was the bars and I'm not 21 so I might not even get into the bars but it doesnt matter I go anyway. I go to the first bar its packed and is 21+ sounded like a good time but onto the next one. The next one is 18+ and its alright a lot of guys but some really good looking women too. I chode, I'm really stiffled never been in a bar before and the musics mad loud and I don't know anyone, but than I start bumping into people I've met before and get more confortable in the bar. I'm still kind of stiffled in the bar when talking to girls, I can feel that flinching and nothing really comes of any of the sets. However some positives of the night was that I don't know why but I'm good at making goog guy friends and am easily unstifled around them and meet a couple cool guys and get invited to a big party tomorrow nite ( which i guess is today now). I also get introduced to a couple of good looking girls by these guys it doesn't go anywhere but I'm not going really hard because I'm just being social getting into a new scene chatting. So that's how my nite went nothing crazy but just building momentum because when you think about it this is only wednesday I still got thursday friday saturday etc.
Victories: Took Right Action by going out and socializing no excuses. I'm eating better. I'm lifting hard. I'm working hard in school. Got invited too a big party that I wouldn't have known about if I had stayed in. Met a lot of people creating more buzz about myself strenghtening friendships with guys I do know. Building momentum.
Lessons: Gotta unstifle myself the biggest thing I noticed was that my voice was completely off usually I have a pretty loud good voice but it was weak and barely able to be heard in the bar. I gotta rework that. Socialize more talk to more girls. Wasnt really physical that much. Trying to figure out how to still be sexual but at the same time not burn to the ground and fuck me over socially because this was basically a large social circle and the hot girls new the top guys that I was talking too.
Whats Next: Back to the basics a bit with tonality and everything. Keep Building momentum by owning myself and taking right action.
ACMRA1 out.
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Post by acmra1 on Jan 22, 2011 20:40:40 GMT -5
Had a crazy past couple nites have to get it down real quick. Went to a pregame than party thursday. I was social from the get go being my usual loud slightly obnoxious self havin a great time. Just chattin being social with a lot of people I only remember the two sets that I hooked up with that nite. I was being loud and obnoxious chatted up this brunette rite quick I've been told she was pretty cute 8ish and i thought she was but I have no idea now. Chatted with her than led her to the dance floor grinded for a bit mixed in with hooking up. Found out she had a boyfriend on the football team plowed kept dancing and hooking up. Eventually saw that it was going no where and she was using me for my dancing skills haha. Roamed the party more being social and having a good time went upstairs talking with people saw more people I knew just getting more and more confortable. Head back downstairs my friend needs a wing, the girls a pretty cute blonde maybe a 7, being my goofy cocky self she loves me. We dance and hook up she loves it keeps telling me that I'm so bad but she's a good girl, not tonite etc. Eventually her and her friends are about to leave and i just chill and be cool (thnx alex leave when they leave). Friend loves me and leaves us alone as we head out cuz she doesn't want to be a cock block haha. I spot an open sober rider grab her and her friend and bring them to the car. We hop in get driven to the dorms says I can't come up I tell here no way am I walking back across campus in a blizzard. She relents her friend dissapears into a different room. Turns out her roomate and her roommates boyfriend are sleeping on the top bunk in my girls room so she says we cant have sex. I say ok that I'm tired anyway and just hop in the bottom bunk. She goes to change and brush her teeth or somehting. I get a listerine and just chill. She gets in bed. I chill for a bit and we start goin at it hooking up and i start fingering and shes givin me a shitty hand job. I start to head torwards getting a blow job when a sound from her roomates bed comes up and the girl goes ice cold for actually fucking. She gets scared of being caught by her roomate so we just end up hooking up for a bit more and then fall asleep. The next morning I wake up and head out after kissing her goodbye. Turns out it still snowing pretty hard and I walk across campus in a blizzard to my own dorm and then pass out. It was a solid nite. Building Momentumz! Ill write about lst nite and tonite later. ACMRA1 out.
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Post by Two Step on Jan 23, 2011 13:06:13 GMT -5
..........dude wtf You should of brought her back to your dorm and made her take the BLIZZARD WALK OF SHAME!!!
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Post by acmra1 on Jan 23, 2011 14:56:50 GMT -5
haha yea i shud of .. i jst didnt know if i could have gotten a ride across campus all the way to my dorm.. you win or u learn
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Post by Two Step on Jan 23, 2011 15:48:02 GMT -5
lulz > Getting laid
=P
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Post by ceoarob on Jan 26, 2011 2:48:41 GMT -5
happy birthday
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Post by acmra1 on Feb 7, 2011 10:42:52 GMT -5
fuck man im terrible at keeping a fucking journal half the time i cant be fucked to remember all this shit basically last couple weeks I've been going out 3-4 nights and made out with a bunch of girls, one close, than I've been sick for a week now n havent hooked up tht whole week. I went out sober once and I was pretty terrible compared to my normal nights. Less dominant and could feel myself flinching when I normally wouldn't. Still had a fun nite but was just not great results I guess. I also tried out meditating and felt a notable difference after. It was cool. Basically I am just trying to get healthy again and keep going out and having a good time. Also I think I'm gonna start a 30 day meditation challenge. Gonna get more consistent with this journal. Good Looks. ACMRA1 ps. thx ceoarab
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Post by acmra1 on Feb 12, 2011 13:49:49 GMT -5
Failed the meditation challenge.gotta start that again been busy as hell and sick as fuck this week. Ruff times. Wasn't able to go out wednesday or thursday for the first time because I procrastinate hard and had mad school work to do and I was sick. I have to learn to manage my time better. I'm still doing descently well tho.
To the FR: Started the nite out late. Went over to pregame with a couple of my friends a lotta doods and a couple girls. Get social proofed hard by all my friends. I chat with the girls a little bit, but the'yre not that hot and it's early, they're feelin it but I don't even number close. I'm trying something different tonite after reading Alex's article I understand what he means by ur at ur best when ur relaxed. I've been trying to be high energy all the time, but it's best to just pump ur state and then relax in that feeling and talk to girls. I do the best when I'm just relaxed and flirting hard. Anyway we start to head out and the whole group fractionates, my boys end up stayin to blaze in their dorms, but I say fuck that and end up just making my way to a party I've heard about. I walk in and it's just mad doods. It's like maybe 75% doods, its a sorority throwin down so what do u expect. It's a lotta frat guys that I know so I just accept it really and just chill and talk with a lotta the kids that I know just being social for the most part. End up playing some pong and blazing a little bit. Finally end up chatting to some girls that I know a little bit and their friends that I don't. Turns out that they're all in this sorority. So I start chatting to them, you know to build up my buzz and so I can know girls in the sorority in the future. The first thing I do is hold my hand out pull the girl I know out out of her seat on the couch and then sitdown and she's kinda pissed. Takes my drink, drinks some and pours a tiny bit on my shirt. I'm just chilling so I don't really care we flirt for a bit not really physical at all, just trying to be social and practice the relaxed arousal that Alex is talking about. I can tell that they're kinda of into because they're ioing hard, but I'm not trying to hook up with them at all just trying to have an in for the future so I just chill. They leave, I chat some more with friends for a bit and end up making my way home and just chillin. Kinda a weak nite, but I like that I accepted what it is and didn't get all pissy because they're wasn't a lotta girls to game or whatever. I just let it happen and had a good time. Just building up momentum for the future.
Victories: -Going Out and still being in a good state no matter what -Momentumz -Taking Action Things To Work On -Probably should have pushed myself more because their where some banging girls they're that I didn't talk to - Restart meditation challenge - Get healthy so I can lift and play ball again - Work on my time management skills; going to start wake up productive. Does anyone know how much time out of ur day it takes to do it. - Working on my social circle game its important in college. Watchin some vids and readin some shit about tht. It's mostly logistics and all these different things. It's interesting and as I go back I notice a lot of what's being said is true. Pce
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Post by acmra1 on Feb 18, 2011 1:42:55 GMT -5
Went out on V-Day: Socialized hard; I'm definitely getting better. Increasing my social skills. Get invited too parties and shit mad people talking to me. Not getting results with the girls I want the most yet, but definitely getting a buzz around me. One of the hottest girls at the bar that I had met socially a couple times and never really tried much with her and was nonneedy and all that shit; was all over me hugging me and shit, but I didn't do anything wasn't really feeling it at the time.
I'm so much more comfortable at the bar than I was the first time I went before. The girl i hooked up with in the blizzard was playin this hard to get shit. I wasn't fuckin with that at all. I said hey to her when I saw her pulled her in and she was like no I can't but looked back at me like she still wanted it and dissappeared. I said fuck it and didnt chase for a second and just socialized with my friends. I ended up bumping into a girl that I hooked up with a litttle before the blizzard girl and danced with her for a bit, but couldn't keep her one uglier friend occupied so she got dragged away whatever. I'll see her again.
I went and talked to some kids I know cleared some shit with them, and now I'm better friends with them and in a week or two it'll be straight for me to go to their parties again. Than I opened some girl that was kinda cute, I was completely relaxed and she was into me, than one of my friends came that she already knew and he completely eclipsed my energy level; it was interesting to watch, It was kinda weird because I was in this really chill headspace and also didn't really like the girl that much so I just kinda watched it happen.
I noticed blizzardgirl watchin me a couple times through the nite, but ignored her. She opened me while I was chilling at the bar, and basically straight up told me she was just playing hard to get. I told her I just don't chase that hard and than my friend kinda blew up the little interaction we had going, but this girl definitely wants it let's see what happens. Bars winding down go chill with my bros at a table were jst chatting for a bit, blizzard girl and a friend come sit. We chat for a bit and I'm kinda ignoring blizzard girl at times and were eyefucking at other times.
Eventually me and my boys decide to bounce. When were going kind of in the same direction but I live alot further and this really pretty black girl asks if she can walk with us and it turns out she lives near me so me and her go off and walk together to the dorms. I'm pretty money for the most part here the million dollar mouth piece is flowin at times. It's like a fifteen minute walk, we talk about things like walks of shame and shit, don't hook up with her cuz she already hooked up with a kid on the bball team tonite. End up gettin a hug and her telling me to facebook her and we joke around a bit. N that's my valentine day.
n also blizzard girl ended up texting me the next day with this huge appology about how she was being a bitch and apologizing and shit. I basically jst txted her alright jst stop doing it or something like that. We'll see what happens with her. Can't wait to go out tonite, supposed to be a bangin party by the frat I'm joining next semester.
Gonna Be Ballin Hard in the Motherfuckin Paint. Leggggo ACMRA1
Gotta Figure out how to follow up on blizzard girl she wants the dong I jst gotta make it happen and how to follow up on this girl that I had class with last semester that I hooked up with a week or 2 ago have her fbook but not her number.
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Post by Two Step on Feb 23, 2011 12:15:32 GMT -5
AC i love you dearly but you must type in paragraph because walls of text kill my eyes
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